SamanthaSN

Thanks so much for your encouragement! I just got my exam grade back for exam two........................ I GOT AN 86%!!!!!!! I am so relieved right now. I just have to stay focused!

I am currently 217 days away from graduation (if I pass). I got a 66% on my cardiac exam, there are three more exams to take before I find out if I can pass. I just took the second exam and I'll be getting my grade back tomorrow.... It really got me thinking. I could really, really fail out of my program. I'm so embarrassed and ashamed of my test grade. Even though I am totally aware that I should worry about myself and no one else, I can't help but feel terrified to still be in school while my peers go on to get jobs in the field. I work full time because I live on my own, and I can't get any more student loans than I already have. I get a partial scholarship from my job. Between loans and scholarship I have my school fees covered, but if I fail this class, I will loose my scholarship and not have any money left over for tuition fees. I'm so scared. I can't focus on anything and generally I'm depressed. I feel like everyone is excitedly moving forward in their careers and I'm drowning in a pool of anxiety and failure. I do great in clinicals, I do great on check offs, and usually I do great on exams, but if I can't pull off a miracle, I'm totally screwed. I guess I'm just looking for some support here, because I have none anywhere else. Some words of encouragement would mean so much right now.... thanks.