Hello all ... I new here and need some support I started my 1st rn job in june on an arrhythmia step down floor. After 3 weeks I hated it . We had no manager no educator my preceptor had only been a nurse for like a YEAR ! Everything was going wrong everyday . Heres a little bit of the back story . I'm a very ambitious 25 year old who has worked on a Med-surg floor for 2 years and in an ICU for 4 years . Nursing is my life I had wonderful nurses and doctors who have taught me so much . I was the very first ICU tech( cna) to ever be put in our ICU so the nurses were not so sure what to do with me . So I followed nurses with there meds . worked codes , learned ICU meds and drips, Help MD's put TLC in and seen more produces them most experienced rn's ( small hospitals do everything at the bedside) After 4 years of assesing and helping care for vented and nonvented ICU pts all my nurses told me to go get the experience a BIG INNER CITY hospital will give you. So on June 2008 I left the nest to learn to fly ... First I was told that I wouldn't be hired into an ICU because I had an ADN not a BSN. Kinda ****** me off:banghead: So in orientation I had to sit next to some 21 year old who graduated from a university tell me how shes working in the CCU. I said oh yeah why did u pick there ? Her exact words" It sounded cool ":banghead: OMG I have worked my butt off to get an ICU JOB and so BSN would thinks ICU is cool gets the job over me . Second my floor is so boring .. all it is , is syncope and s/p icd placement. I feel like I have lost all my skills since I have done nothing for 5 mths. Im so sad ... I love nursing so why is it so hard for things to work out for me ? I;m quiting this hospital and going back to my small hospital were the new manager told me that I still need a year experience to work in the ICU because " AS A NEW NURSE I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO HANDLE IT " I told her all about my experince since shes new and doesn't know me and she still said " BEING A CNA U DON'T UNDERSTAND THE ROLE OF AN ICU NURSE " So now I'm going to work on Med-surg floor and have 7 PTS and hopefully not be too broken to transfer back into the ICU after a year 4 years of school and lots of debt was supposed to = DREAMS COMING TRUE NOT MISERY AND TEARS