neverrusty

Since 2004 I have lurked, here is my story: I am one of those students who failed, and it was one of the best things that ever happened to me. I entered LVN school in Fall 2004 with A's in most of my prereq's. I should have checked my motives before I even applied for a nursing program!!! I got all A's in my bookwork and clinicals in LVN school. Clinicals made me nervous and I dreaded having to drive to the next town over. I failed Basic Skills because I failed all of checkoffs twice. My meds pass I did in front of the Director of the Program and got an 84 on it. So that was good for me. I looked at the videos of my doing my checkoffs and I look nervous and nauseous. In the end, it worked out for me ego because I got 100 points out of 102 points possible on the final exam. The instructor told me after my failure in the class that nursing and I were probably not a match. I cried a little because of my bruised ego, but the tears were tears of relief and I told her so. From the very first day of clinicals, my cover was blown! A CNA told my clinical instructor that I "looked scared" and she was absolutely right. However I stuck it out because I did not want to have a bunch of withdrawals on my transcript. I entered the program with my version of what the legal system would call "unclean hands". Being over 40 y.o. with no direction in life is not a good thing. A steady job eluded me at the time. I had passed a Med. Assistant course with flying colors but could not find a job. A nurse at a job fail said that Med. Assistants are a dime a dozen, be a nurse. From then I was hooked. For two years I did my Prereqs and I got into four different nursing programs on the first try. Two were RN and two were LVN. The RN programs would have meant a move across the country which my sisters discouraged. So I stayed in my home state and moved to a smaller city for an LVN program. I think people can be wonderful. But I learned in that one semester that I do not have the capacity to work with them in such a personal or intimate setting. I still remember my patients names and I hope that they are doing well. When my dad had a very bad fall at home alone due to atherostenosis, I was grateful to understand what the doctor in the hospital was saying in medical language. When my dad got home a couple of days later I was able to feed him as I was taught in the LVN program. My dad is now completely ambulatory and living in an Assisted Living program in my city. Now, I realize that I am a "paper and information" loving person. Shakespeare said that we should all be "true to ourselves" and after my experience in NS, I know what he meant! I have gotten a degree in Accounting and am in search of employment in a field that I enjoy very much. My intention is that this will be my only post. However, I adore lurking on these forums and have been doing so for the past four years!!! There is no such thing as allaccountingclerks.com so I have to get my jollies where I can. This website has proven to me that failing out of NS was the best thing that ever happened to me!!! God Bless all the nurses and nursing students...