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Need a little advice/reassurance regarding a horrible day I had at one of my FNP clinicals. First of all, I've been a RN for 7 years (mostly with adults in intensive care) and am in my last clinical for graduate school which is pediatrics. I'm working with a NP who does a ton of different things including inpatient, outpatient, and independent infectious disease work. On my 2nd clinical day, she tells me to show up at 8 am but that she won't be there and will have me work with the fellow on the inpatient team. I show up and follow the fellow around seeing a few patients. The fellow is nice but grills me like they do the medical students at rounds. She asks me random questions about all things regarding specific pediatric infectious disease issues of which I didn't know many of the answers (I have had minimal peds experience thus far). On seeing the last patient, while she is examining an infant and the two parents surrounding her, she asks that I exam the infant too. I barely can squeeze by three people crammed in a corner and am frazzled, trying to do an exam on an infant thats screaming and of which, as I stated before, I have had little experience with peds. I get embarrassed and get out of the way after. Then the fellow wants me to come back to exam the ears on the still screaming infant and I say "no that's okay". Of course, I should have just sucked it up and did it, but I panicked and felt semi humiliated. I was so flustered being with a strange preceptor who had made me feel uncomfortable and gave me no inclination that she wanted me to do any exams on the patients she was seeing. Then the afternoon was worse. I was able to meet up with my actually preceptor who says we will be going to a school to host a flu clinic. She tells me to get there, I will have to walk by myself while she drives herself, an intern, another student of some kind, and equipment. When I ask why can't I drive my car, she states she does not want me to possibly take the only parking spot which should be hers. First of all, this hospital is in the middle of the worse neighborhoods of Chicago (Washington Park). Second of all, the walk is 1.5 miles..each way. Thirdly, I will have to be walking back when we are done which is evening time. Fourthly, I'm dressed in professional clothes and caring my bag containing heavy books/equipment...sweating doesn't look good when trying to dress/look nice. Then to make it worse..on my small journey to this school that I've never been to, my bag with my books/stuff broke and I dropped my cell phone shattering the screen. I wanted to ball my eyes out and quit. But I sucked it up and made it through..and alive. I just feel like this terrible day shouldn't have happened like this...my preceptor should be the one training me and teaching me the ropes. I have no idea how things are run and what the routine is because no one has showed me. I understand, I'm in my last semester and show know a lot, which I did well in my last three clinicals (all adult patients though) but I'm just struggling getting use to children again. Then to take everyone but me to the school hurt made me feel horrible. Am I just being a being a baby? What would you do in this situation? I just feel so stressed and upset over this, I'm trying to suck it up but it's hard.

Well I just found out that I PASSED!!!!!!!! I am sooooo happy and relieved I will not have to relive that experience. Thanks for all the encouragement, it helped alot!

Well I just found out that I passed!!!!!!!!!!!! 75 questions and all those stupid SATA....phew!:loveya:

Congratulations new RNs! I also had 75 questions with 20+ SATA questions...I freaked out (and am still freaking out since I get the results tomorrow morning 8 am). I don't remember much of the test...I know I had some priority, teaching, and a handful of infection. I can only remember a few that I got wrong, and am super nervous. I hope that I didn't totally bomb this... Wish me luck that I passed!

I just took the NCLEX-RN this morning and am freaking out. The computer stopped at 75 questions and it seems like a blur. I had a ton of Select all that apply questions, a few medication questions, and the rest I can't remember (alot of infection stuff and some priority). I feel like I failed...I did take Kaplan and studied diligently for the last few months but still I'm scared to death. I will be so humiliated if I failed...because I did all I could to pass. I hate this waiting stuff....I feel like I'm going to have a MI. Wish me luck that I don't go insane over the next 48 hours. P.S. Does anyone know if Select All That Apply questiosn are a good sign or not? Or does it just depend?