RN/RDH

Just want to share with you all who have given me input and encouragement: I landed a new job in the same field and with a smaller company!. When I gave my 2 week notice, my boss was so happy that she made sure I get all my PTO paid to me and on top of that, she said I didn't have to come back to work, that she was paying me for my 2 week notice too. She was glad I found something that suited me better. In reality I just didn't fit into "their plan". I am so thankful! God's face really shined upon me that day! I haven't had a vacation in 5 years, so happy!

Help ! I need help to re-focus. I'm a new nurse with one year training in hospital cardiac care. I've just completed 6 months of dialysis, including training. Our clinic has almost 100 pts, twenty something to a shift. Being the only nurse to give meds, sends my head spinning to play "Beat the Clock", where sometimes I don't win all my cupie dolls. other times, I'm fumbling my way with charge where it appears my ducks don't all fall in a row since this is all new to me. With that, there definately is some back stabbing behavior where I am visiblly allowed to drown in my tasks instead of being offered assistance by others nearby that can help. I have reservatons about just asking for help, for being accused of being unable to handle the challenge and therefore giving way for the next two RN's hired after me to act superior towards me, especially since one is a good friend of the MGR. Yes, I've made my mistakes as a new nurse, nothing that can't be remedied or fine tuned in my training, but I'm I really behind the 8 ball? I think my only fault is "trying to hard" in a clinic where the pct's act like they can't be replaced by habitually coming in late and not properly filling all of their data in tx. More often than not, we are short of staff where pitching in with all other tasks makes for a very harried day which borders on pt. safety. Can a newly trained nurse, who loves dialysis, by the way, find other avenues of work using that training? I am also a registered dental hygienist. One drawback is living in a small town, at least 50 min. from a city. Grateful for any input.:redpinkhe