mindalignment

" I have to keep telling myself that this is a great job, but in reallity this job holds a lot of responsibility, "crappy responsibility." In addition I feel tremendous pressure from my family, my husband, and my husbands family to finish and work. It's not like I don't already have a BSN from another university, and my husband makes an excellent salary, I don't have to work. I keep hoping that all the pretentious people in class with their over enthusiastic "I love nursing" attitude will be non-existent in the workplace." I thought nursing was going to be completely different than it has turned out to be. I also have a BA and had been in grad school for several years. To be totally honest, I thought school would be a breeze, I could go into any field I wanted, have high pay, and little responsibility! I planned to get a job doing something where patients were either in comas or chemically sedated so I wouldn't have to deal with all that 'touchy-feely' holistic care crap. My attitude was pretty superior and counterproductive to say the least! Because I had committed to the program, I am finishing it and plan to go to work as an RN--but with a whole different attitude! I had to find what I really did like about nursing and focus on those things. I had to accept that no matter where I go in life professionally, there are always going to be aspects of the profession that I'll just have to stomach along with the good. And I had to find my own excitement about nursing rather than denigrating those who naturally had the passion! It worked. You may not be able to change your attitude on this. The operating room may be a good option if you want a little more cynical environment... If not, I recommend you get a non-bedside career. You might find (as I did) that you take your attitude with you. Hope you find happiness!