Butterfly83

Hello All!!! I know it has been a long while since I posted but I wanted to give you an update. I did end up going back to the same school. I do believe that there was a personality conflict of sorts with a couple of the instructors. Did they "hate" me? I don't know. I don't really care. I found that a lot of my dilemma in thinking that they did was my fellow classmates. They were really reserved and would let others "fall" around them while lookng down on them. That was the 2009 class. When I went back, I found that there were 11 of us that had to repeat for various reasons. We joined the 2010 class. This class made me feel like I was in another world. There was so much more cohesiveness and if someone was having a problem we would all help them. We all helped each other rather than turning on each other. With this being said, if the instructors were"targeting" someone else or were"focused" on someone else, we all knew about it and if there was something we could do (even if it was just moral support) we tried to help. Thus, it really appeared as though they "hated" me. I later found out that it wasn't just me. They treated others rather poorly. The instructor that made the decision to fail me was just a really condescending individual. (She treated the whole class like that and we all agreed with each other that "condescending" should have a picture of her next to it in websters) So during her clinical we all "stayed under the radar" and learned as much as we could from the nurses on the floor. We survived. There were a lot of head games played but we all held each other together. (I was talking to the Dean of the Department one afternoon about joining the military and all the head games they play in there. She said: "If you can handle [insert my school name here] nursing, then you can handle anything." There is so much more to my "head games" notion but I'll save you the dumb drama.) So anyway to more important matters. I told myself after that whole "end of the world" feeling resolved that I was going to go back ad finish what I started. I was not going to quit. and guess what???? I MADE IT!!! I graduated last weekend with a B.S.N!!! :grad::clpty: So THANK YOU to all who posted on this thread! One of my classmates asked me to read this at the pinning ceremony (she had a terrible fear of speaking in front of large groups of people): Isaiah chapter 40, verse 38-41 The Lord is everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; But those who hope in the Lord, will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

I would like to take a moment to tell everyone thank you for their advice. I have become more accepting of what this situation has to offer me. I have appealed my grade in this class. I haven't heard a response yet. However, if it is a "no." I'll be okay. I am going to take a couple classes this fall at a community college to keep from having to pay my loans back and to keep my mind fresh. Then back to nursing school in the spring (I'll probably stay at the same school). The only thing is, when I go back and I don't repeat these incidents. Will they try to find some other reason to fail me? Since this is where they say I am lacking, then I want to improve professionally. Does anyone know of any resources (books, websites, etc.) dedicated to professionalism in nursing?

Wow... Thats a bit... harsh... I never said that I didn't or don't assume responsibility for my actions... Honestly at the time, I didn't see it as wrong else I would not have done it. Once I spoke with my instructors about it, I realized and apologized.

#1 was for saying this during med admin: "I know these are stupid questions but what is your name and what is your birthday?" The instructor took me aside and told me she would have fired me on the spot if it was up to her. That statement was very unprofessional. I understand why we ask those questions I was just trying to see things from the patient's prospective. The second was for not charting during my shift. I didn't think I had to at the time because the floor nurse had done it. The third was for a HIPPA violation. I was assigned to take care of the 13 yr old daughter of a fellow student. The patient assignment was changed the morning of clinical. We as a group later found out that there was a med admin error done earlier by the staff before our shift. The clinical instructor told us about it and told us not to talk to anyone outside the clinical group about it. Well I thought it was okay to discuss it with the mother a few days later, since she was there that morning.

After all the hard work I have put in during my time at my nursing school, my nursing instructors hate me. (I believe) I had the grades but because of three small incidents during clinical, they fail me clinically, saying that I am "unprofessional." I believe the punishment is way too harsh and that 2 of my instructors and I had personality conflicts. I don't know why b/c I did nothing more than try my best to be a good nurse while in clinical despite their incessant put-downs. All of my patients and their families loved me. They always wished me the best and showed their obvious disappointment when I said that my shift was ending or that I would not be back the next day b/c our clinical was only one 12 hr shift a week. Yes I have tried to appeal my grade. I have decided to try to go somewhere else to finish. I was a second semester junior working toward my BSN when I failed my clinical. I can't return to my current school until next spring b/c they only offer that class once a yr in the spring. However, I hate the idea of knowing that I'll probably be treated even worse next year if I go there. I want to try to find a different BSN school in Ohio or western Pennsylvania somewhere. Any Ideas??? Is it possible to transfer nursing classes? I had a 3.6 gpa my 1st semester junior year. What impact will my past failure have on admission to a new school? This scares me to death. I want to be a nurse more than anything b/c I feel that helping people is what I was put here for. Is it possible to recover from such a horrific event? Anyone Please Help (any advice at all would be greatly appreciated)... :urgycld: