8IrishRN8

Hi Everyone, I'm new to allnurses but after reading many posts and hearing wonderful advice, I decided to post and hopefully someone may offer some guidence. I've been a nurse for almost 3 years now on a med/surg liver transplant floor. I recently moved out of state, started at a new hospital in a new specialty...SICU. I've recently finished orientation and am on my own. I'm feeling a tremendous amount of pressure and anxiety in my new setting. I am learning so much and really enjoying this kind of intense nursing, however i spend much of my shift just trying to keep my head above water and trying to provide the best care that can without making any mistakes. I feel that the expectations of my coworkers are very high since i've been a nurse for a few years. I find there are only handful of nurses who i can rely on for support while others make me be dumb for asking questions, being unable to not fall behind, not knowing all the policies and procedures by heart or making any kind of mistake no matter how small. The moral on the unit is low, many new grads, tripled assignments, hostility between coworkers and a high turnover rate. I'm losing my confidence as a nurse with every critique. I am use to being the go to person for questions and help, I loved being able to help someone else or offer advice. I don't know if its me as a too sensitive person or the lack of support or any kind of encouragement. In four months i have had only one person tell me i was doing well, otherwise there is no kind words to help me get through. I was warned by many that this unit had some very "tough personalities", but I didn't want to prejudge... i'm thinking they were right. I hate to give up but i'm thinking about moving back home and continuing in the ICU at my old hospital, where i have heard nothing but positive remarks about the staff. I don't know what to do. The stress and anxiety about going to work is always with me. Does anyone else feel this way? Do I tough it out and try get by with these kind of coworkers? Its been 4 months on this floor, how long do I give it. How do you handle passive aggressive coworkers? Thanks so much for reading.