pepperdoodles

I have to say I understand. I've been out of nursing school for 10 months now, just about to finish "new grad" status. Its been a hard year. So afraid of making mistakes. All the little irritants, and yes, being in charge of other people's lives. I always look at the new grads that go straight into ICU or another critical care field, and wonder what they have inside them that tells them they can do that kinda work off straight out of school. they are so brave. The good thing is I'm finally starting to feel a bit better, but I'm still not really comfortable. I also recognize this is probably not the exact field of nursing for me. I love caring for patients:heartbeat (I also have envied the nursing assistants), I'm just so afraid of doing something wrong. My faith in the Lord is always developing, but I have to put my faith in Him, otherwise this job will drive me crazy. Ultimately, I believe He is in control. that has helped me enormously, however, I must remind myself multiple times a day of this. And I rely on my charge nurses. I always ask questions. I never worry about looking dumb. (at least I try not to). I find I am really drawn to Hospice care. After my 1 year is up, I am definitely going to look into. I'm not so much into the whole "saving lives" thing. It scares me. I'm also part time, and I pick up shifts when I want to. that way, when it becomes overwhelming, i just take some time to myself. I like it that way. Don't give up on nursing yet, the Lord has blessed you with a great opportunity. Just take your time and keep your eyes open for an opportunity that is more suited for you. At least you take your responsibility seriously, and you obviously care. Good luck