:nurse:TxnurseBSN, THank you so much for this reply. I feel like such a failure not doing actual "hospital nursing". But I've tried it, and it's not for me. I am not giving the care that patients deserve, because i am so unhappy. I have decided to do school Nursing, which i loved in nursing school (I followed a wonderful school nurse for 12 weeks). It has taken a lot to make this decision, because i feel like the other nurses i graduated with look down to it, and don't really think it is "real nursing:. Thank you for making me realize it is real nursing, and it is so refreshing to hear you say you feel more like a nurse then ever! :nuke: