No matter what others soothe me to get me out of the misery, I keep blaming myself for any med error or mistakes I've made. I know this kind of attitude is not helping me at all. But I sometimes think that I have no right to eat good food, enjoy life, or laugh. I feel so rewarded when I see my patients smiling and getting well. I always thought nursing was my career. Now I'm really doubtful. I don't know whether I can survive if I make a critical mistake. I can, of course, say "You can never be too careful". But errors and mistakes happen. This thought makes me depressed and paranoid. I hope you overcome your stress and become strong. I will also do my best.