Egwana

I started working as a CENA (In Michigan) at a LTC two weeks ago. I enjoyed my classes tremendously, but once I was done orientating it seemed there were a dozen new things to learn that no one had told me. For one, they put me on a different wing that I had been orientated on, the hardest wing. And now that I'm not orientating, my coworkers get upset when I ask a question, saying things like " I already explained that to you, can't you remember?" and "I learned how to do that my first day." Now I'm under a lot of stress, in the workplace and out. Raising my 9 month old, dealing with a needy boyfriend, living away from my parents for the first time in my life, plus my first serious job. I'm trying to remember everything that I'm taught but it's so much to take in. And now my coworkers are making me feel incompetent, and slow. They talk about me behind my back, and occasionally smile to my face. Plus my wing is understaffed (Only me.) and the only reason the other girls can complete the job is because One) they don't follow infection control Two) Resident's rights are largely IGNORED even by the nurses. I had one lady slapping me across the face because she didn't want to get up, when I told the charge nurse, she told me I still had to get her up, otherwise day shift would complain. Despite having the crap beat out of me, I still had her up and ready, but then I was in trouble because I clocked out a half hour late. The other girls don't use the lifts because the lifts are too slow, so they practically throw the patients into their wheel chairs. Then they laugh at me when they see me coming with the lift.. I started this job because I wanted to provide quality care, focusing mainly on resident's rights not what would make it easier on the next shift, but now I feel discouraged from the attitude I get from my coworkers and my charge nurses... Any encouragement and advice would be greatly appreciated.