ArtOfNursing

Thank you. I am trying to remember that being human means I'm not perfect. I really want to do things right. I'm learning that not all the advice I get from fellow nurses on my unit is the best. Some have no problem cutting corners. They seem to have less drive or I guess less concerned. It's hard for me to relate to right now. It makes me want to see everything in writing before I do it. Thank you so much for all your wonderful guidance & advice.

I graduated in August and was hired in October to a neuro ICU unit. How excited I was. Now, in January, I wonder what I was thinking. I'm so nervous at work, on the way to work, on the way home, even at home. I realize I don't know even half of what I should to be effective. The other nurses on my unit keep telling me its good that I'm scared. I worry so much that either I'll do to wrong thing and my patient will suffer or I'll not notice something and my patient will suffer. I'm constantly checking IV pumps. Six IV's going at once almost sends me into a panic. My poor husband does his best to comfort me but I know he's worried I'll give up. I tried to leave the unit. I asked if I could transfer to a Tele unit to build my experience level. The ANM said yes but the manager said I was an ICU nurse and she wouldn't give me to a Tele unit with 11 weeks of ICU training. She said to give it 6mo. I cried the other day during report when I realized I didn't make sure ABG's and Chest X-rays were completed. The oncoming nurse probably thought I was crazy. I thought I was crazy. Why is it like this? I want to help people and comfort them, not be afraid to do anything for them. Advice is greatly appreciated.

I thought I was going crazy....So did my husband! Now I know I'm not crazy...or maybe we all are, JK.