CNFSD

Hey. Im just feeling really lost, and feel like I need to get it out of my system. Im a 20yo RN in Australia. I am about to complete my graduate year. I was accepted into all the hosp's i applied for, and accepted the dream job. I have done rotations in ICU, a cardiac recovery unit, and lastly in a haematology setting. I have honestly loved it, and have received brilliant reports. My main issue is that i am coming to a crossroad. I have to decide whether to persue cardiac or oncology/haematology. I have roughly a fortnight before my application must be lodged. I have kind of been pre-approved in both areas, but I dont know which is best for me in the long run. I love cardiac, but there are a lot of young people in the area, and the environment is somewhat less supportive than haematology. I get the impression that haematology is somewhat more adaptive and supportive. I would LOVE to work overseas, most likely Europe in prob 2009/10. I aim to complete post-graduate diploma by this time, then travel using this qualification. I love learning, so i feel this is achievable. Any advice on which path i should take? Both areas fascinate me, i get on with the staff, and pick up on problematic patients (those most likely to crash, etc.). Will i have better luck finding work overseas in cardiac than haematology? Haematology at my hosp is a much harder area to get into, i dont want to give this oppurtunity away without knowing its the right choice. Sorry to sound so desperate, but 90% of my mates are non-nursing guys... and so much is happening in my life atm that i dont really feel i can speak openly to my female nursing friends. I appreciate ANY advice or opinions whatsoever. Thanks VERY muchly. X