Ames24

Thanks for the advice...everyone that I have talked to has told me to give it a year and you will have that day where you come in and everything goes right and I try to believe that. It's hard though in the place that I work to imagine sticking it out another 6 months, because in that amount of time other staff and surgeons are still going to be treating me like dirt and I just feel like sticking it out despite their rudeness is like saying it's okay for people to treat me like that. At first I was excited about the job, I was excited to learn new things, but as time has passed and people have treated me so rudely I've started to lose interest in surgery. Though I was stressed in the ICU I miss the teamwork and having friends at work and I'm really wanting to quit. I have no desire to learn how to scrub, I dread going, I miss taking care of patients for more than 5 minutes, but mainly I think I'm just tired of people being so mean. Of course, it's not everyone there are some friendly people, but I don't know if maybe I am too sensitive or I don't know what my problem is...I don't want to be the loser nurse that switches jobs 3 times in 2 years...I just can't be happy. And it's not like I've done badly, I got great feedback as an ICU nurse and I've gotten good feedback from the OR as well, but nearly 6 months of any confidence I had gained from my previous jobs has just been crushed in the OR....ugh I don't know what to do!!! I'm sorry for my negativity..I'm so stressed.

So I've been working in the OR now for about 6 months now and I'm really not sure how I feel about it. It's a level 1 trauma center and a majority of people are really unfriendly. Prior to working in the OR I worked for 1 1/2 years in the ICU and was terribly burnt out so I decided to try something different. Well, after 6 months I'm all ready burnt out on the OR. I dread going to work everyday because despite still " being on orientation" I'm often on my own and feel like I'm floundering all day long most days i'm ready to cry by lunch time but asked almost daily to stay overtime because we are always terribly overbooked. I've been given okay feedback on my performance from my educator, but it's difficult to go to work and be treated like I'm the most idiotic person on the planet by co-workers and surgeons because I don't know everything about every service when I've been there for less than 6 months and haven't even rotated all the services. People are very caught up in their own circles and I have been told, that we are not meant to be friends we are co -workers...well i wasn't expecting us to run through a field holding hands but i at least thought i would be treated like a human being instead of dirt. I really want to quit. People that i have talked to say give it a year but i don't really think i want too. I sometimes regret becoming a nurse because I feel like i'll never be happy with a job and it's been 2 years of nursing with ICU and OR and I have disliked both....This post probably makes me sound stupid but I just needed some advice. I really don't think OR is for me. I am very sensitive and its hard to go to work and be treated so poorly by people almost daily. I sometimes feel like I'm being set up to fail. Although the ICU I came from was tough I miss it because at least the people were friendly for the most part. I feel like I'm never going to find my niche....I was hoping OR would be it, but I don't think it is, I don't know what to do. Sorry this post is so scatter brained, any advice would be appreciated...