debshu

I had a very similar experience to this as a new grad in the ICU. Although I had one official preceptor, I was always with a different nurse, none of which took the role of "preceptor". I was either shadowing or I had my own patient. I had no access to the Pyxis or computer for charting and it was very frustrating. More often than not, I was told to go find someone to pair up with for the day. I really did try to learn as much as I could on my own, but I kept waiting for my orientation to officially "take off". It didn't. I have to agree with the others - take as much initiative as you can. Talk to your manager and/or charge nurse. It's hard to find that neutral ground as a new grad where you don't create too much "trouble" on a unit. I resigned from that position. What I do regret is not going further sooner with my concerns. If I had, I probably would still be there. My manager and educators never seemed to be on the same page. We had an internship program that looked great on paper, but hardly anyone was following it, myself included. I was way too timid to make waves. I graduated top of my class too and felt that I was totally useless on the unit. If you speak up about your concerns, at least you'll be sure you've given it 100%. I hope it works out for you. I know how hard it can be as a new grad. If they hired you for this position, you must have a lot of great qualities. Keep that in mind when you ask for assistance. Good luck to you!!!!