HI, IM NEW TO THIS SITE AND THE FIRST THING I HAVE READ WAS YOUR STORY. HONEY, KIK BUTT!!! U CAN DO IT IF YOU WANT IT BAD ENOUGH. LOOK INTO YOUR CHILD FACE AND REMIND YOURSELF "THAT IS WHY YOU ARE DOING THIS". YOU HAVE CONQUERED HALF THE BATTLE JUST BY TRYING. TAKE IT DAY BY DAY AND DON'T THINK ABOUT IT SO MUCH, JUST DO IT. KEEP A POSITIVE STATE OF MIND. IM IN THE SAME POSITION, ONLY I HAVE FOUR KIDS AND HAVEN'T BEEN IN SCHOOL FOR 15 YEARS. I CRY EVERY NIGHT BEFORE I GO TO BED IF I GET TO SLEEP. IT IS SO HARD BUT I REFUSE TO GIVE UP. KEEP YOUR HEAD UP! REMEMBER, GOD DOESN'T GIVE YOU WHAT YOU CANT HANDLE. YOU CAN DO IT!!!