Sorry to hear you're feeling so down. I went through a short period of depression and it caused me to think about life and put it in perspective. First of all, as all the other poster's have said, talk to somebody, it is not being weak or negative to seek out professional help. Second, when I would complain to my mother about how bad I had it, she would always come back with "You don't have it bad until you walk through the doors of the clinic as a patient." She works for an oncology group, as I do now also. In short, be appreciative for what you have (especially your health), don't feel sad for what you don't. On the same note, don't let the things you can't control get to you. And lastly, excercise, you will be suprised how much better you will feel after working out or even going for a short jog. Life is too short to be sad . . . it's so much more fun to be happy. Even if you are in a relationship it does not guarantee happiness. You control your own feelings. Sorry I'm rambling, hope you get to feeling better.