JoJo7737

I wish hiring an attorney was an option. I have no way to do so. I think that after careful consideration and much thought over the last 4 or 5 days since this occurred, I have decided that I will give up my license to practice nursing. I value my self respect and dignity waaaaay more than anything else. I am in no way meaning this in a derogatory way towards anybody in recovery however I was a human being before a nurse. I have been reading all of the boards here regarding IPN, trying to learn what it is and how it works. I refuse to jump through all of those hoops, pay out thousands of dollars for monitoring, admit myself to treatment costing thousands more for forgetting to document medication. My 2 drug screens, rapid and the 10 panel were negative!! Isn't this enough? Ugghhhh just over it all....

Not even sure what to do or what comes next. I am in shock, disbelief and utterly horrified. I was called upon by my nurse manager on Thursday (9/11/14) morning to report to employee health. He actually came and escorted me. Once there I was accused of removing medications (Percocet and Norco) but not documenting them given or wasted. I worked in an area that is basically an extension of the ER/ER holding and it is very fast paced, at times we didn't get to document a lot of care given whether it be meds, interventions etc I know this is wrong wrong wrong but it is what it is... Long story longer... after the allegations were made I agreed to submit to drug testing or anything else that would prove that I have not been using any medications from my employer. My rapid screen was negative and they also sent off a 10 panel screen to an outside lab and assured me that would be positive and to make sure I answered the call from a medical review officer. 4 days later I have heard nothing from a medical review officer. I do have a prescription for Librax for IBS however I only take them as needed and hadn't taken one for 2 days prior to the test and Phendimetrazine for appetite suppression which I did take about 4 hours prior to the test. I am totally lost. My employer extended me an offer to take FMLA if I agreed to enter immediately into treatment!! (for what I still don't know) My employer referred me to a treatment facility and told me IPN would be looking for me to have reported and admitted myself to a facility. I sat there like but for what?? I am not using anything. I have never been in treatment in the past nor do I need to be in treatment now. I'm not using anything. So, scared to death, I went to this place for what I was told was just an assessment of my needs. I told them everything they asked and was completely honest. They recommended inpatient drug treatment citing my Librax and Phendimetrazine are drugs of abuse and I could possibly have an addiction issue. I was (and still am) LIVID!!! I am 5 foot 6 inches and weighed 326 pounds!!! My appetite suppressant is given to me in 2 week intervals, and my Librax.... (for IBS) I had a script for 90 pills on July 29 and still have 55 left. (It's 9/16) My employer and the treatment center have been calling and saying if I don't enter treatment by yesterday then I was going to be terminated. How is it the treatment center and my ex employer even communicate?? Isn't that some sort of HIPAA violation?? I have worked for a treatment facility before and we couldn't communicate to ANYBODY about whether somebody was there or not. Our exact phrase was "I can neither confirm nor deny that person is here". The treatment facility is openly discussing my info with my ex employer. As far as IPN and the BON... what exactly should I expect now?? I am totally ready to give up nursing if that is what it takes. I am NOT spending the money on expensive treatment or losing my self respect and dignity and admit to an addiction that I CLEARLY don't have. I'm sorry this is so long, I am just trying to figure out what I can do and what should I expect?? ANY info would be greatly appreciated.