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thanks for all your help. I'm thinking seriously of bumping back to prn at the hospital and working minimally. Just enough to keep up skills. Then working full time with my home health case. I think day shift though would be even more stressful. At least at my hospital. Too many people and management and doctors there. LOL. Thanks for your advice. It helps to know others are there for advice

Hi, New to this site and I'm so happy to have found it. I work in a Level III unit and have been doing this for 21 years now. Night shift and feel I'm just burned out. But not sure. I go back and forth between whether I would really miss my little ones and I "just can't do this any more". We lost one last night. That's 4 in a month. This was a 32 weeker that had some minor respiratory issues and was doing fine, went to our stepdown unit. Then, well, sepsis. You guys know. I just feel I cannot do this another minute. I haven't slept all day, and feel like a zombie. I also really hate the way hospital nursing is going now. Like everything is about making money, making the hospital look good, and cover your behind. Not patient care, like it used to be 20 years ago. Things have really changed and it's just not for me anymore. I also do home health with a precious little 2 year old, who I took care of in the NICU, that wasn't expected to live. AND I LOVE IT! Maybe that's my calling. Home health. Anyway. As you can tell from my post, I am exhausted from my 12 hours of "hell" last night and no sleep. Just needed to vent and maybe get some advice from seasoned nurses out there. I've never done any other kind of nursing than mother/baby and NICU. Glad to have found some fellow nurses out there.:zzzzz :zzzzz