I had been working as a nurse for 6 years when I was working in the ER. I had an elderly patient who was waiting to be transferred to the ICU. I had asked the nursing assistant to put the transport monitor on him, but she just put it in the room, the patient talked to her briefly. 30 minutes later the nurse who was doing the transport came in and went to see him and came out and said he was dead. I went in the room with the charge nurse and the doc and saw he had indeed passed away. I sat down on a stool and just cried, right in front of the doc and charge. Not because he had died, mind you, he had been very ill and appeared to have had an overdose of coumadin, bur because it had been a god awful night, and with his passing, there was just that much more to do. I have also cried in other situations, but this one will forever stand out in my mind, and I know there will be more. Hang in there. There is nothing wrong with crying, it is a great stress reliever.