Lulu1313

I am kind of new RN in the community based ED, little over a year. We had a shortage of staffs during the shift. Everyone was busy with their patients. I was giving blood thinner, but before doing that I needed a PTT lab. I always get a new line one other arm even before begin blood thinner. The patient's family is keep asking questions why the patient is getting blood thinner and that etc. And saying I did hear anything(even though I heard doc explaining to the family). In top of this happening, I got a new pt on the other room. Keep getting messages and a call to go in the room to triage and start the bipap. I got the lab and start the med without creating a new line. I Went to other room. PTT lab came and it was high. I am thinking may be I got distracted and made a mistake on getting blood afterwards. I re-lined and lab on the other arm and send the PTT to verify. I am overhearing other staff commenting on what I did wrong. I am getting mentally tired worrying about my mistake and worrying about what other people says. Keep douting myself when I do anything and makes me feel so small. I like working in ED and think I am improving. But when something like this happen, I just wanted to quit. I have so much anxiety every time I go into work.

I called out to work late and not usino proper channel of the line. I had unexpected personal issue and lead to mental breakdown and asthma attack. I was not thanking straight. The manager and whole team got upset. The unit that I work is ED unit and we were so busy that day. I have no excuse. I feel horrible my personal issue got to me and cause everyone trouble. I am waiting to hear back from manager for possible displanary action. 1. How should I approach my co workers to delivered sincere apologies.? 2. Should I look for new job? 3. I am going to counsels to get better but what if I have another mental breakdown?