FACMcLean

OverthaMoon, So sorry for what happened. I'm sure it's hard. I can only imagine how difficult this must be for you. I am a CNA as well. I think it would be a good idea to have some plan (attorney) just in case you are unjustly punished (e.g. fired and no evidence of drugs. etc.). I agree with everyone who has responded that the supervisor and others are trying to protect themselves (they aren't thinking about you). Although, there is a humane and reasonable way to do this. At the end of the day they don't look like they didn't do their job. However, if your test results haven't come in already. They should show that those individuals over did it and that you were telling the truth. Also, you told people where you were and what you were doing and someone should have said something, but they didn't. That says enough about the people you work with. Don't trust them. They aren't going to look out for you, obviously. Not everyone can work a day shift. Some people's schedules won't allow them to. So, if you can't do a day shift don't kill yourself over it. You are in Nursing school and day shifts aren't practical unless you do night classes, which some schools don't offer. I know because I am going to be getting into nursing school and I know nurses who have had to work and go to school. They all say the same thing I am. Not generally practical. Yes, falling asleep is a no - no, but it happens. I have been there too (more so dozed) and I have seen nurses who have fallen asleep at work as well (we generally, will wake each other if we see the other falling asleep). Most of the time you don't even realize you are. You can be typing out a report/updating someone's chart and fall asleep. Also, why do they have a massage chair?? Honestly, who wouldn't fall asleep in a chair like that? No judgement on you though. I am sure you have thought it over a hundred times, what you should have done, but I would encourage you to forgive yourself and to allow this to help you grow as a person and a professional (and like someone else said in the comments, "help someone else"). These people accusing you don't seem like they are reasonable, so I would get legal help if I wanted to keep my job. Otherwise, I would talk with those people (Supervisor, charge, etc.) make it clear that you made a mistake and that you are sorry, let them know that it wasn't intentional but an accident and that you didn't even realize you had fallen asleep. Let them know how you will make sure it won't happen again that way they see that you have thought things through and will do better. Also, if this is the first time you have done anything like this I wouldn't beat myself up over it. They will see that and should forgive the mistake. If not this is not the end of the world. Try again but take the lessons with you. I'm saying this from my own experiences. Take courage. Blessed be.