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Hello, so I've been a nurse for nearly two years I started out my nursing career on a medsurg unit at a very busy hospital. The unit I was on isn't a typical medsurg unit, we dealt with plastic surgeries, traumas, bariatric, and colorectal surgeries so I've seen many things that I don't think most people get to in the time I had. Since college I've dreamt about being in the obstetrics side of nursing and I was finally granted the opportunity to work in Labor and Delivery at a different hospital. I've been in L&D since mid may so its been about 5 weeks out of my 6 months orientation. I truly believe I like L&D, however I've emotionally been a mess, I just feel like I'm not progressing well. Being the only one on the unit that has no history with L&D and the youngest, makes me feel so insecure and absolutely stupid. If one thing doesn't go as I anticipated I feel like the worst nurse for example, the IV's at this hospital are different from what I'm used to, so I occasionally will miss a stick, if Im having trouble with reading the strips, or I'll have moments where I think "why didn't I think of that?". I'm on the unit from Monday to Friday for 8 hours (till mid July then 3x12's) and the unit, majority of the time isn't busy so I don't get to see many patients or I'm not there long enough to see much happen so a lot of times I'm piecing things together because I can't experience the entire laboring/birth process. The charge nurse and preceptor I'm usually with say I'm doing well but I don't really believe it. I'm practically teaching myself in the education portion of things which is no help, I try to ask as many questions as I can but I think because a lot of the nurses have been there for a while the answers aren't really detailed or everyone does things differently so I'll get confused. I want to have faith that I can do this but my doubts are getting the best of me. Did anyone have a rough beginning that ended up paying off or got easier ?