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Thanks, I'm working my doctor now. Thanks for the suggestion and support. I've been down and out lately so thanks again.

I would love to become a pastor. I actually got into nursing because I was involved with mission work abroad. It was a gray time in my life. I was blessed to get to go with a group of medical professional that were so kind. That compelled me to enter into nursing. It's just way different doing mission work vs nursing. I'm updating my resume and will find work to pay the bills, but I am definitely getting back to the basics for reading my Bible and getting involved in church again. I know God will open up doors. I'm super or was super passionate about Christ. I put nursing first and put Christ last. Now I'm paying for it. That's for asking that question. It helped a lot.

Davey, thank you. Another reason to solidify why I should leave nursing. No compassion and MOST not all nurses thinking they know it all. Again, not a jab at you, just another good reminder as to why the nursing field is definitely not for me. Also, since you specialize in psych, I really hope you don't speak to your patients that way. It is definitely it therapeutic. Thanks for your post!

Hello everyone, I don't feel like I really need to go into detail as to why I'm leaving but I'll touch on it and give a little background about me. Graduated in 2020 with high hopes of making a difference. Fast forward to now. Sure I've left a mark of patients lives, but ultimately nursing has left a huge hole in me. I began having panic attacks (that has never been an issue) the first semester of nursing school. Went to the ER because they were BAD. I actually thought I was having a heart attack. The panic attacks continued. I tried antidepressants (again, I was never depressed before) but nothing worked. The doctor prescribed me Xanax. It worked immediately. I never abused them but months go by, then a few years. I took my first nursing job in South Carolina. I took about 50 pills then me to wean off. Within two days I was withdrawing. I feel like an idiot now, but I just thought I was super stressed. Had to fly back to Texas to get my prescription refilled because no doctor in the urgent care would prescribe it. I could write a book on that, and how to NEVER take benzodiazepines, but I'll save that. Back to leaving nursing. Everyone says, "Just stick it out" "It's rough for the first year" "Try a different field of nursing" "Just work for 3 days and be done" The problem is I bought into the lie about compassion, integrity, teamwork, etc. I honestly did not have an issue with many patients. I expected some to be rude. Some were dying, some were old and tired. It never bothered me that a few patients were rude. I'm quitting nursing because so many nurses were so hateful to me. I constantly felt like I had to watch my back. There was constant gossip. Also, I have never meet this many people that work so hard to be so lazy. I have watched nurses completely ignore patients to where I have to stop my assignments to take care of their patients. Yes, I was very vocal about it to the DON, with no results. Only to have the administrator tell me I should have to talk to him. Yeah right, then I'd have a target on my back for the DON. From my experience nursing has sucked the soul out of me. I am dependent on benzodiazepines now, just started trintellix for MAJOR depression. (Suicidal ideation) I used to run marathons, and now I barely want to get up to take a shower. Maybe it's me, but I know I was never like this until I began pursuing a nursing career. I used to joke around all of the time. Now I just ruminate on life and how I hate it. The world needs nurses but I just wanted to post this, because since I have been a nurse I always find myself googling things like. "Quit nursing, now what" "Mental health is suffering since I became a nurse" "Is it okay to quit a nursing job before a year" You get the idea. I lost it on the lazy nurses and management yesterday at work. I just lost it. I was so tired of picking up the other nurses slack and management not doing a thing about it because we were short staffed. The administrator called this morning being hateful. Actually talking *** to me. I honestly wouldn't be surprised if they try to set me up somehow to get my license taken away. Yes, people can set you up. All it takes is a few people in power and it is your word against theirs. Now I am unemployed. I'm not going to act like I'm not stressed, because I have bills to pay and no pay check. I will find a job quickly. I don't care if it's a store clerk. Again, from my experience this field is full of vindictive broken people who will do anything to make other peoples lives miserable. For anyone reading this that has suffered like me, if nursing is ruining your life make adjustments and get out. I had to remind myself that I had a great life before nursing so why can't I have a great life again.

I work in a SNF. There are only a few nurses that I work with that work hard. The rest cut corners, stay in the break room, or are constantly dodging work. The last few weeks I have finally lost it and just started letting them have it. I don't give a *** anymore. I got into this field to help people but I've noticed that the majority of nurse that I work with now and in the past just show up for a paycheck. Does anyone else have this issue at their work? Also, I was asked if I would be interested in being a DON of our sister facility that is doing horrible. It has went through 5 DONs in the past 2 years. There is not really going to be that much of a pay difference. I am already stressed to the max. Any thoughts on if I should take the position? The only reason I want to take it is to turn it into a building that patients will want to live in, and nurse will want to come to work and work hard. I'm just venting but would love to hear some thoughts from anyone else.