MWMRN

I just recently graduated and started a job in the NICU. I love my job and the people I work with are amazing. However I'm beginning to think hospital work isn't for me. I thought I was fully prepared to work weekends and holidays but saying and doing are two very different things. I'm getting lonely and crying on the way to work. I don't understand how everyone else does it and I cant, am I being immature about this? I've been seruously looking into doing aesthetic nursing and all the certification I would need. It is an area I've always been interested in and it would allow me the work life balance I'm looking for. I'm just scared that I'm going to regret my decision and I don't want to be the person who jumps around jobs because I know that it'll look bad on my resume. Like I said I love my job, I love my babies, and all my coworkers are amazing which I feel is rare to find. I do plan on staying at least one year at my current job but should I change my specialty? I know I'll never know till I try but should I even try? As a new nurse I'm very lost and could use some advice!