in.despair

Thank you guys for your comments. Yes it was absenteeism. I have always been professional on the job. The problem is, HR wants my medical records. My manager is saying the only way they can keep is if they see that they can put me on as an employee as an American with Disability's Act. They want the medical records from my most recent absenteeism (a.k.a. my relapse), whoever I spoke to (for example if I went to the hospital). I ended up speaking to my regular Telehealth doctor this time. I actually recently called him about this issue and he said he would have to provide all records (showing all my profile unedited with the alcoholism there unfortunately, the ptsd is there and the anxiety but the alcoholism will be shown). Is it worth it providing them my records or should I just quit at this point? It's a catch 22. I just don't know what to do. I feel like at this point quitting is safer that way maybe in the future I have a chance to work there in the future in some capacity or at least this giant hospital's HR doesn't have my records. It's also not guaranteed that they will keep me once they have my records, they have to evaluate it to see if I am eligible to be part of an ADA employee but why would they want an alcoholic CNA? Even though I'm amazing and super clean at work and I just had a crisis leading me to be absent because of this......god I have no idea what to do. Any advice is welcome

I am a CNA and I missed work on several occasions because I had some severe issues withdrawing and I could not break the cycle. I never drink at work and I have been so good and sober; I just went through so serious things in life and I fell...and when I fall I fall hard. I am about to be fired but my manager is amazing and is trying to retain me. This is a big hospital and she needs to go through HR. The only way I can stay is if I prove I spoke with my provider and I can get on the American's with Disability's Act by having them provide information. I have a myriad of other issues like PTSD and anxiety.....this whole HR thing will be completely private but I'm afraid if they know im an alcoholic this will be a big NO as a CNA and they will fire me regardless. Do you think I should ask my provider to keep that private and just discuss my other issues such as anxiety to keep my job? Please help. Please no judgements. Just going through a lot of hardship and I need this job and advice. Thank you in advance.