rn92077

I'm a fairly new nurse working 5 days a week. I've always wanted to be a nurse and I love my job. I have been feeling guilty since becoming a nurse for having to leave my child all of the time. When I get home I'm so tired and I try to do the most that we can on the weekends to try to make up for my absence in the week. I always stayed at home with my child while being in college and I feel that I'm failing them by being gone most of the time. My heart wants to stay home and give my kids the time that we will never get back together, but the money I bring into our home helps my husband so much. My husband also works full time and supports our home. I thought about dropping to part time but I would just have to wait until next year. I guess I'm just looking for others to share their similar stories; what did you do? How did you get around these feelings? Does it ever get better? I know these are normal feelings. If I could stay at home I would. We can live off my husband's income but it seems like we just barely get by on one income.

So I just graduated this past December and I have only been a nurse since February. I am on a cardiac stepdown unit and I am so overwhelmed and dread going into work everyday. I know its supposed to be hard as a new grad. My whole unit has been nothing but supportive, sweet, and helpful. I keep asking myself why I even feel this way, my unit is great but it is SO much. I'm kinda getting thrown to the wolves (my preceptor's teaching style), which is fine with me but everyday that I clock out I thank god it's over. I wonder if critical care is just too much for me? I have another offer in OR and I am going to shadow next week to see if its a good fit. I love my unit but I am so overwhelmed. I guess I'm just looking for any words of wisdom or if anyone else has been through something similar? I really want to enjoy what I do and enjoy going into work everyday.