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I am currently in my first year of nursing school, and I just finished my first semester. And ever since the beginning I felt worried and anxious about entering nursing school. At first I thought that it is normal to feel that way since this is nursing school I am entering. But throughout my first semester I never felt better instead I still feel that same anxious and worried feeling. And then I started doubting myself whether I can still do this or not. I cried endlessly, too pressured and scared whether or not I am capable of doing this ( I have social anxiety, an introvert, and shy). It came to the point where I want to change course because I am too afraid to go through this journey (considering the time and money I will be spending on this course) and I try to convince myself that it will get better but I still feel the same. I never had a dream course but nursing was one of the first few things that came into my mind that's why I went though with it. And now whenever I get asked why I pursued this course I couldn't have a definite answer. Also I really do not want to disappoint my family knowing they see me doing well in nursing school. the problem is I just don't see myself as a nurse years later and I never really knew why. I really need an advice because I am gonna try again on second semester whether this really is for me or not? I am really confused to the point I am so pressured and stressed to make a decision. I told myself if I still feel the same feeling after my second semester I am shifting/changing course but the problem is I do not know what will it be because in the first place I never had second choices. Please your advices would really mean a lot to me.