BB0221

Hi everyone, Looking for some insight. I graduated in 2017 with my LPN. I worked in a subacute rehab and graduated with my RN in February of this year. I was hired at a local hospital last month for night shift on a post surgical unit. I had in person orientation (classes, etc.) before starting a 10 days orientation on day shift. It seemed busy but manageable and there were lots or resources available. I then oriented for 6 nights which seemed pretty quiet and again, manageable. I was taken off orientation early due to short staffing and was now on my own. I know this is my fault for not advocating that I needed more time. The next two shifts were relentless. The patient acuity had changed, as we have a high turnover rate, and I am now feeling overwhelmed. I was told by the day manger after one of my shifts that "Everyone always needs more time" and if I did not ask to go back on orientation I would be "bullied into going back on". I understand hospital vs subacute is different. But when I was having difficulties on my shifts, I would ask other nurses and they too would seem to not have definite answers (acuity was high and everyone was super busy). I am feeling really defeated and honestly do not even want to go back. I did talk to my manager and educator and was told "I'll see what I can do". I was given 4 more days on orientation. Any advice?