This is the first time I have posted. There is a wealth of information on this board, and I am hoping that some of you may give me some advice or information. I'm sorry if this sounds kind of rambling, but I'm very confused about my career options right now. I am a freshman student in a NROTC Nurse Candidate Program. Although my grandfather served in the Navy in WWII and my uncle is a retired Naval Academy graduate, I have never experienced what military life is like or even been on a base. When I applied for the program I spoke with an officer recruiter. I thought I was going in just to get some information, but he conducted the formal interview right then and there. He told me at the time of the interview that I probably had the scholarship because my grades were good, I had attended a high school with a medical academy program and had two years of "internship" experience at a large metropolitan medical center. I feel very honored to receive this scholarship and know that I want to be a nurse, but am now undecided if the military life is what I want. I feel guilty because I know there are some scholarship option guys in our unit who would love to have this fantastic opportunity. When I asked my uncle about the Navy nursing program before accepting the scholarship, he just said that I needed to know that the Navy will train me first as an officer, and then as a nurse. I'm starting to see what he means now. PT has been a struggle and I dread it every time. I've been working out with a trainer to develop my upper body strength for push-ups and going to remedial PT. I can do the runs but I am usually one of the last. I could easily swim my time, but that is not an option. I know that I will eventually pass my PRT, but I'm not there, yet. I haven't been yelled at any more than anyone else because they know I'm trying and don't complain. Gotta confess that I don't like drill at all. Part of the problem is that I think I'm just tired. I also work a part time job. My unit is at a university about 10 miles away from my college and I'm spending most of my stipend in gas driving back and forth, sometimes three times a day (the recruiter never mentioned the mandatory study hall 5X a week for the first semester ). I know after next year when I'm in nursing school, a lot of this won't be a factor, but I just don't know if I will make it that long and I have only this year to decide without obligation. As I type this, I don't mean it to sound like a pity party. I'm not afraid of hard work. My parents have had tough financial problems and I worked two part time jobs in high school. I'm afraid this is the chance of a lifetime and if I give it up I'll be sorry. Then I think I could be obligated to a life that I'm not sure would be right for me. These are the questions I have: 1. I never have talked to a Navy nurse. What is a typical day like? How many shifts per month? 2. Do you feel like you are military 24/7? When you go home, can you leave the job at work? 3. What are the things you like about being a Navy nurse? 4. Can anyone who has been through the program tell me about their summer training? 5. Are you usually assigned to a med-surg floor for the first two years? There are only a couple of other women in our unit who are nurse option. They are both in nursing school now. One has become a good friend and says to stay with it. She transferred in and says our unit doesn't have the camaraderie of her former unit. Maybe that's why I'm so uncertain. I know the decision is mine alone to make, but I would greatly appreciate any advice or comments. Thank you!