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Hello everyone, I've had this thought on my mind for a while and I would appreciate your advice on it. I've been working on a med-surg/telemetry floor(we are a small hospital so sometimes I float) for about 6 months. Over this time I feel like I have gotten a good grasp on the day-to-day skills and I am building my confidence every shift. Everyone in my unit is very nice and helpful and overall it is a good work environment compared to the stories I have heard. However, the thing that has been troubling me the most is that my anxiety and stress continues to be at a all time high. I don't eat as much anymore and because of that I have lost weight. The days that I am not working I am worried about going back into work. I have been consistently having hand tremors and eye twitches too. The anxiety mostly comes from not knowing what I will be walking into whether or not I will have admissions/discharges, will we be fully staffed, do we have CNAs to help us, the kind of patients I have, are they stable or unstable, whats going in the ER, etc. I feel like whatever unit/speciality I go to within bedside setting I will have these things to worry about. I also thought that as time progressed it would ease up but I'm still having these feelings. I feel like I do want to try to wait it at least a year so I have a good foundation and better chance to get another job. I have thought about making the switch to aesthetics or possibly going into case management where there may be less stress, weekends/holidays off, better lifestyle overall. I'm asking if anyone has had similar experiences and has thought of leaving or has left and what has happened. Also if anyone with only one year experience has tried to make the switch and how it turned out. Any advice, recommendations or thoughts would be appreciated.