Emmagesena

Hi, I am brand new to this website and forum, and stumbled across it because I am searching for help/advice. I have been a CNA for about a year. I got my CNA license the Summer before my senior year of highschool, aspiring to study nursing in college. I've worked evening shift every weekend of my senior year in a LTC facility, and when the pandemic hit, I switched to full time. At first, fighting against COVID and finding my place as a healthcare 'hero' (my unit had a huge outbreak in March-April) seemed like a noble cause and my interest in nursing was re-ignited. Now, my company has become very very hard and frustrating to work for, due to the administration. We are often forced to work doubles due to call-outs and the management's incompetency. Our lifts and vital signs equipment are constantly breaking and management is very lazy to repair it. Administration threatens to under-staff us if they see us sitting at the nurses' station on the surveillance cameras, and many of my coworkers are quitting or transferring. Management is arrogant, rude, and lazy. I realize that not only the CNAs are suffering, but also the nurses. The worst part is, from what I hear and read, almost all healthcare facilities are like this. I've always seen being a nurse as the light at the end of the tunnel. I'll tell myself, "Oh, this job as a CNA is terrible now, I'm being treated like a soulless machine now, but when I'm a nurse, everything will be so much better." Now I'm starting to realize that even nurses feel this way. I am beginning to question whether or not I want to continue in nursing. I love the good parts of being a CNA-- comforting residents, caring for them, laughing with them, holding them when there is nobody else to hold them--but I question if I personally would be able to withstand the negative side of t hiswork for the rest of my career. I want to have a family someday and be able to provide for them without being extremely over-stressed and burned out. My worries escalated when I was reading on this page after a Google search of: "Is being a nurse worth it" https://www.indeed.com/community/healthcare/the-con-of-being-an-RN/td-p/694844 Do I really want to have a terrible job through college while working hard in nursing school and make the next four years of my life really hard, just to have another terrible job and career that'll eventually burn me out? I just want some advice or opinions from others, including those who are already nurses. What do you think? I'm open to any type of feedback.