Blessthismess

Yessss! Don’t have a facebook at the moment and waiting to get the OK to start work again! So waiting to hear my evaluation to return! What type of area do you get to work in?! And CONGRATSSSSS. That’s super exciting!

OMG I am not alone! I started ARNAP in January! I had an injury that led to dependency. Long story short my boss thought I was off and I was withdrawing with my moms help using her left over meds. They tried to say I diverted but I never did. So when this is done I’m pressing back with false accusations and backing me into a corner. I got 5 years of this and I am an anxious mess everyday. I am clean and sober for going on 8 months! I went to rehab before entering. I also hate not being able to have an occasional glass of wine. But I know that it’s worth it to have no issues on my license. I’m just scared to not be able to find a job after this. I feel like this program is almost setting up for failure. They do introduce “new” policies that leave us paying hundreds to thousands of dollars extra that we don’t have. I have lost everything and have to stay with family. (Which I am so lucky). I did get lied to about being put on inactive status for 90 days and would get it back on contract signing day. Then when I showed up they told me oh yeah another 90 days...so 6 months without work.....I have used all of my savings and I’m starting completely over. I feel you on this trust me. I felt so alone not being able to find someone in the same program as me. I met someone who completed it and said that they felt more punished during this than if they would have just taken suspension. Because even on vacation this follows you and random UA ruins vacation plans that you had on that day. I feel like I’m stuck to this and my life is put on hold for 5 freaking years! Sometimes it makes me wonder if being a nurse is worth it....