Bonnyb

Hello, I am a relatively new grad RN and I was recently terminated at my first hospital job and I feel absolutely devestated. I was working at the ED for about 2 months and after awhile I began to realize that it was not the right fit for me. The high intense times and the stress were overwhelming me more than I thought I could handle. On top of that my preceptor and manager had given me some feedback in that it seemed I wasn't very enthusiastic at work and it seemed like I didn't want to be there. From then I tried to work my best and even appear more joyful about work. My preceptor even told me that I had improved a lot since. But ultimately, when it really came down to it, it was the high acquity patients that got to me. In being under such stressful times and has gotten me to panic and make mistakes. With that said they provided me with the options to either see if I can stick it through the rest of my orientation (which already had a 2 week extension) or try to go up to one of the general med floors in the hospital where it's a much slower pace. I went with the latter. I had the interview and I thought it went well, I was honest and thought I showed my love for pt care and nursing, but I guess it wasn't enough. After the interview the next day, I was told that I apparently "wasn't enthusiastic and had a flat effect." To make a long story short, I was fired from the hospital entirely. Luckily, I have my other job, a nursing home rehab facility, that I can fall back on that I've been working for 4 months now, however, I am still trying to find another job as I want to be in the hospital and gain more experience from there. This termination has really made me question myself if nursing is for me and has gotten me very down and discouraged if I will ever be hired in an acute care hospital and even stay hired and if I can handle such pt loads. How does one recover from this, especially being in this awkward stage of being a new grad and having some kind of experience? I know now to definitely work on the way I present myself and really find something manageable for me that I would actually enjoy, which is hard to say what bc I really don't know where I would really like to be in. I just really need to gain back my motivation. Also, in terms of resumes and interviews, should I even mention the hospital/my experiences in the ER? I have learned a great amount of things in the ER than I ever had working at my other nursing home job, so how can I properly include my experiences? Thanks for listening.