Uriel95

Thank you! Thank you so much!

It seems like yesterday when I made this post, devastated and battling depression. I just wanted to update y’all, I’m now a REGISTERED NURSE!. I graduated, I scaled through my obstacles and passed my NCLEX. Thank you for your words of encouragement!

I did appeal and I got an email from the dean today, my appeal was granted and I would be allowed to retake the class. I am also mandated to see a therapist weekly and the dean monthly, and to review every exam with my professor. Unfortunately I can’t take a semester off due to my financial situation. It’s kind of complicated. I feel much better, I started journaling and I’m doing okay mentally. The school was well aware If what I went through. I got one last chance and it’s my responsibility now to make sure I’m in a good mental state. Thank you. I truly hope you’re in great health now, happy new year!

I’d look at the scholarship options you mentioned. I appealed to get back into the program and I’d find out in 4 days what the decision is.

I honestly never looked at things this way, I just been mad at myself. But I understand everything you’ve said. I’ll make sure to do everything you said, and keep working hard to excel. Thank you ❤️

Thank you so much. I woke up this morning feeling better than I was yesterday. I know I can’t take care of others if I don’t take care of myself first. Thank you so much for your response

I started college in 2014 and after 2years of premed I switched to nursing. I was originally supposed to graduate nursing school December 2019 but I failed a class in my third year. The semester has ended, I failed again just 6 months to my graduation. I’m emotionally blank I don’t even know what to do. I left a abusive relationship last year ( the abuse was one of the reasons why I failed the first time, coupled with working in warehouses to pay tuition because I don’t qualify for financial aid or scholarships. I pay out of pocket) only to find out Jan 2019 that I was pregnant for my ex. To cut the long story short I placed the baby up for adoption due to the circumstances I found myself in. However, the birth and adoption process opened up the memory gate and I started dealing with flashbacks due to the years of abuse. I went from been on the deans list 3.8gpa to a 2.7gpa, I’ve been battling suicidal thoughts and depression, ptsd, finances (I literally pay 10grand a semester) and you know what’s worse? My memory loss. I literally forgot normal potassium level, what drug class carvedilol is during my medsurg ATI. I blanked out and couldn’t remember a thing. I still can’t get over the feeling, I felt so dumb and was mad at myself for it. My professor reported me to the dean because she noticed. She said I had mommy brain and my brain is trying to block out the traumatic experience She was the only one who asked how I was with my child loss. Sorry if I’m ranting but I can’t stop being mad at myself for thinking I could handle it all, now all the money I’ve spent was a waste? Who fails in senior year? What did I do to deserve all the abuse? I’ve literally stopped driving because I get severe anxiety and panic attacks. I’m a crying mess. I’m hurt, I’m so hurt. 2019 has been horrible for me. My therapist says I should keep talking about it but I feel even worse any time I think about it. I LOVE NURSING, it’s my dream, I don’t want to give up but these negative thoughts keep coming. Somebody say something please