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I am a CNA who works in a LTC facility. Nursing is the only job I've ever wanted to have and I have been straight A's in all my pre-nursing courses. I started my first job as a CNA three months ago and I was super excited, but now I am feeling really discouraged. I work graveyard shifts, meaning that I am alone in my facility for half of my 10 hour shift. The residents like me, but I can't seem to go a shift without messing up. I am so exhausted by the end of my shift, I always seem to forget to do something, like forget to weigh someone or forget to put a cream on someone ect. I feel horrible about it. This isn't the caregiver that I want to be. I know I can't be perfect, but I feel that I should be better than this. On top of this, one resident that I am in charge of has a very stubborn personality. We don't have any lifts in the facility and I absolutely cannot lift him on my own if he refuses to get up (I have to bring him downstairs to get food because of blood sugar problems). I'm often in trouble because I can't get him to do what he needs to do, but no amount of being assertive will make him do anything. What's more frustrating is I can say the same things that my boss tells me to say, but he will only respond to workers he likes. When I run into problems at work, I am usually left to figure it out for myself. I know nursing is a hard job, and I'm not a quitter, but I'm questioning whether or not I am right for the clients.