Beau Wolf

I'm a new grad that just got hired to med/Surg floor and I'm worried my co-workers are gonna talk *** about me. It makes me uncomfortable that they are always gossiping about somebody. I just want to do a good job and focus on my patients but I'm constantly thinking about all the bad stuff they are probably saying about me. I have had quite a few screw ups that make me question constantly if I'm a good nurse or even doing a good job. I had a pt with a Foley that I was repositioning Q2hrs when near the end of my shift (5am) I noticed that the Foley was leaking onto the gown. So I assessed his member closer only to find the lower part is deformedand look like its splitting. I should have caught that beginning of shift but I didn't. And I feel really stupid. I called the doctor immediately and took pictures but i should have seen it before hand. OR when I was given a medical Run, only later find out I got a tele pt when the Charge nurse chart checked. I was so busy that I hadn't yet gotten the chance to do so yet. Or when I held pain medication like norco from a pt, cuz pts BPs were in the 90s. Next morning day shift nurse reprimands me saying u can give norco with 90ish BPs. I'm constantly feeling like I'm not doing a good job and I'm making mistakes like this. I feel like I'm giving ppl loaded ammunition to gossip about how bad I am.