JJ1991

Hi there, This my first post on here but I need some help/advice of some sort. I am genuinely thinking of leaving nursing. Just a bit of back story I am a paediatric nurse who has been qualified 2 years or so working on a NICU. I have been off for a long time due to pregnancy illness/maternity leave. As I work in a NHS hospital I have to go back from maternity leave for at least 3 months or pay back my maternity leave. i went into nursing to go into community care specifically health visiting. As you all know their are absolutely no jobs in this field and the one interview I did have for a band 5 position went to someone with more experience. I cannot carry on with what I’m doing along with ongoing medical issue due to my pregnancy and new childcare concerns (I now have two children) I am so disheartened from working the front line with all the short staffing, blame culture, awful shifts and the fact I cannot get a job within the field I want. Obviously I cannot up and quit with two children but I just need some advice on what I can do. I need better hours a better life balance and better working conditions. I feel trapped in the position I’m in I know I picked a very specific field to start in but I feel so under qualified and just rubbish. sorry for the long post and please no judgements I love the patients and parents I work with I’m just so tired already.