notsureaboutanything

Hi all, I am not much for asking for advice but I have a couple of days to make a life changing decision. I just graduated with my BS in May 2019 from a liberal arts school in the midwest. My plan was to go to medical school, but I changed my mind the last year. I felt like I didn't know what to do anymore but I still wanted to work in health care, so I applied to this 21-month, accelerated MSN program (not an advanced practice program) in the city my husband is from (and lived in at the time because he graduated a year prior to me). I was interested in OBGYN and I transferred that interest to nurse-midwifery. I felt really comfortable with that scope of practice. I had a baby in high school so my interest was helping young moms, and my dream would be to do home visits, like the old days. I found out I am pregnant about a month ago. My oldest just started Kindergarten and my husband and I will both be 24 this month. Ever since then I cannot muster up any interest at all for school, and I feel slightly resentful about it. I feel like I don't have anything in common with the people in my class and like the school is stealing 120k from me (it's a private university and there weren't but 2 tiny scholarships available for us to apply for). I was apprehensive from the time I got accepted in March because letting go of the dream of medical school was difficult for me (the reasons behind changing goals is an essay in and of itself). I am very bored in lectures, which isn't like me. In undergrad I found interest in even the classes unrelated to my major (going to a liberal arts school there were many of those). I worked as a tech in a hospital all summer, nights, in the med-surg service line, and all the nurses did was complain. They were very nice to me and I enjoyed picking their brains and working as a team, but they did not seem happy. The doctors did not seem happy either. I left the job before school started because nights wore on me excessively. Since then I have felt very negatively about ever working in hospital, something that has weighed on me as I started school, because all nurses are expected to work in a hospital. Anyway, I am trying really hard to feel some passion about nursing but I can't. I don't know if this apathy is related to hormones because this pregnancy has been so much harder than my first and I have much worse nausea, exhaustion, acne, trouble sleeping and I don't feel like myself. Or I may really not feel passionate about nursing. I started out in college as a nursing major with a newborn baby. I went to the SNA meetings and I volunteered but I changed my major from pre-nursing to health sciences the next semester because again, I did't feel like I fit in with the other girls. I also did started at and finished a semester at a community college RN program that I enjoyed, but had to leave due to problems with my marriage to my first child's father. When I finally got divorced and started at the university I graduated from I applied to be a nursing major but I changed it a month before hand because I met with medical students and loved the curriculum they got to learn and I thought, why can't I go for this dream? I am afraid to leave school because if I am not there, then what am I? Another person with a BS not working in their field? A stay-at-home mom with a wasted education? I cry everyday and my husband is tired of it. I just feel so lost.