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Wbm33

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    I’m in a toxic relationship with the ER

    You’re spot on. I think staying healthy in this job long term would honestly require a therapist to help me achieve this. It is something that takes work, and not just a few personal days here and there. It would really be changing a pattern of thinking, which is something that is very engrained in all of us. Not an overnight fix.
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    I’m in a toxic relationship with the ER

    I think about the ICU, PACU and IR. I worry that I’ll job hop too much which won’t look good on my resume. As a new grad I worked 1.5 years in infusion before starting ED. I was bored to tears and always wanted ED, so it was a great transition. But that’s already two jobs in 3 years. When I started ED I loved it and wanted to retire as an ED nurse. Its disappointing to want to change again so soon.
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    I’m in a toxic relationship with the ER

    Oh man you are right “the ER does not love you back.” That puts it in perspective. I put everything I have into that place and its really not giving me much. It’s not worth losing my joys in life over it. Maybe a day job ICU could be a better fit...I appreciate your post coming from someone who’s left the ED. Thank you
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    I’m in a toxic relationship with the ER

    Thank you, llg, PhD, RN. I work 36 hrs/wk now. I stopped doing doubles or any OT to try to scale my hours down. I don’t think my paycheck can afford to cut back standard hours, as much as I’d like to do that. I also can’t afford to lose my night differential and go to days to achieve better sleep. I’m thinking of switching specialties though I don’t know which yet, and doing ED per Diem. I’m nervous that I may regret leaving because I feel like I’m “giving up.” And I’m really stubborn I hate feeling like I quit something because it was hard.
  5. I have worked in an ER for a little over a year and a half now, doing permanent nights. I love the adrenaline, the codes, traumas, and really sick people. I’ve been pushed to new limits and gained so much confidence. I learned how to voice my concerns, opinions, and a big one: how to say no and set limits with people. But now, the honeymoon phase is over and it’s not all new and exciting. Daily I feel beaten into the ground. When I try to explain how I feel about my job, the best way I can put it is, “it’s sucking the life out of me.” I used to be a really naive, docile person who wanted to please. I don’t feel that innocence anymore. I feel cold, jaded and emotionless. I still love the teamwork (I work with a great crew) and the codes, critical pts, etc. but I don’t know if that’s enough to keep me in the game. I’m depressed, my sleep is profoundly messed up and I never feel physically energized or well. I love the ER but it’s becoming toxic for me. I don’t want to go into work every day to be belittled, verbally and physically abused by patients and their families. I’ve seen some sad things happen to patients that I have trouble forgetting. I feel like my nervous system is shocked and burnt out. I don’t know where else to go. I don’t want to switch jobs and lose my skills and I will miss to critical care aspect. Yet I don’t want to stay and lose my darn mind. Do other people have experiences like this where they stayed and they got over it? Where else have others gone after ED that gives them a better work-life balance? I feel so lost and frustrated...any response helps!!
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