Lostinorlando

Oh boy wait. How was I so blind and saying dumb things?? I even SAW it with someone else because there was another new nurse maybe 10 months there who kept saying she’s not a floor nurse but an ER nurse. She quit to take a surgery office position but after she was gone I heard nurses talk trash about her. I was surprised because I had seen her as very confident. They said too confident, she thought she was better. If that’s the impression I gave I can say from my heart I didn’t mean to nor feel that way, but I do see how that’s the bad taste I left them too. I guess I had the silly notions that most nurses would specialize or something. In nursing school we kept saying we are future L&D nurses, ER nurses, ped nurses, ICU, OR etc. I’m going to think about this more and try to change myself. And thanks.

I’m very appreciative to all the advice that’s been given, and I have to say I’ve felt relieved and realized this isn’t me. The backstory is when I got hired to this floor, the nurses asked me if this was what I’d wanted. For the first couple weeks I said “Well I really want labor and delivery but there are no openings. This floor is great to learn from though”. I didn’t realize it had been a mistake to say that until my manager told me “We’ll spend this time training you just for you to go off to L&D in 6 months” during a discussion with her when I’d gotten reported by a nurse for being afraid to talk to physicians. Oh my gosh that’s another story. I asked a nurse to assess a patient’s new swollen leg with me and got reported that I don’t know when to call the physician. (I did call the physician this was because an hour later after the phys didn’t intervene, he didn’t think it was a clot, I thought the leg then felt warm but wasn’t sure) Anyway - this is all partly my fault not the floor/management. I’m very shy and it invites something like bullying. I don’t stand up or speak up for myself so I have to learn to. Funny part is after I’ve been here a few months, I realized L&D wouldn’t be a good floor for me as a new nurse because I might not have learned enough skills or different conditions outside of L&D. The cardiac patient population also started growing on me. I had talked about wanting to be a midwife one day to the other nurses in the beginning, but then I wondered if I’d like geriatrics. I like helping them manage their prescriptions and educating. I was asked to leave the floor yesterday. (My manager said the patient wasn’t even scared to get an MRI - this wasn’t true, the patient stated she wanted to back out and hoped the Ativan would help but a nurse told my manager the patient wasn’t scared I guess. I said she was scared and the manager just smirked like she didn’t believe me) HR wants me to call today with other suggestions where I would like to go. Have to start the whole orientation process over again. Can anyone recommend a floor for me? I was considering a vent/medsurg unit, trauma step down, even ICU. Where ever is a good place to start. I won’t be saying that I want to go anywhere else but I really do, just not sure what it is any more but I want to specialize in the future once I learn and worked a couple years. Thanks again it has been so supportive to read and I realized my floor was the exact opposite I’m not blameless but it was toxic.

I gave IVP ativan to a patient who was scared of an MRI. I gave it at the time it was scheduled, instead of holding it for the MRI, which hadn't called yet. Although it was scheduled, the parameters stated to hold for MRI. How can I explain this to my assistant managers and manager? I know I was wrong, and I was rushing. Luckily I was able to get the patient to the MRI right away, but it doesn't excuse a mistake.

I need advice please. I’ve worked as a nurse with a BSN for 6 months; and I’m terrible at it. The patients like me, but that’s just bedside manner. I continue to do things wrong. I made one medication error where I didn’t have the correct time. No one was hurt, but this mistake is huge and I have really tried hard to be a good nurse however I just can’t cut it. I work on a busy telemetry stepdown floor for mostly cardiac patients post TAVR. I am book smart, not nurse-on-the-floor smart. My question is what can I do with my BSN career now? Are there any options? I’m willing to go to graduate school but what can I do to with a BSN besides this? p.s I doubt the hospital would hire me on any other floor, even an “easier” one. I failed here, I’m unsafe as a floor nurse.