Hardhands

OK so here is the background: I'm a new grad starting in the ER were I worked as a CNA for the last year of school. I am 40 years old and a guy. I was assigned a preceptor who I knew would be tough but I have discovered that she is an abusive ***** (she actually said " my little sister who is not a nurse could get this!"). also she is not teaching me anything, just telling me how incompetent I am. Now I know how to stand up for myself and all that, but I have a feeling that she is vindictive as hell and she is also one of the charge nurses. I am not sure that complaining will help me because she will just say that I can't handle the job and that I am blaming her. She has won awards and is a big deal in the eyes of the higher-ups.... She has also accumulated a lot of enemies in the ER with her abusive behavior but they all seem to be to scared to say anything... So should I risk it? I can probably survive, but have this annoying need to not let her get away with her bullying and abuse. By the way I can totally handle the job .... What I can't Handle is keeping quiet about all that I am witnessing and experiences. Tell me what you think.

Thanks everyone for the comments, just to give you an update, I made peace with the instructor and finished the rotation in one piece . I have to say that her mood and behavior was erratic and it was pure luck that any of my groups finished the rotation in one piece I'm now in the ER doing fine?

I post this in the male students section and i am trying to get some more reactions.... So here is it the problem ..... up until now all my clinicals has gone great, instructors like me ,I learned a lot, it was fine . recently I started clinicals in Pediatrics and the instructors seems to just not like men. she won't let me or the other guy in the group answer questions and she keeps telling me to stop running my mouth when i try to present the info i have collected on my patient. I have recently realized that she won't let me go near any of the children ,always saying there's not enough time.... when I prepare an IV drug she gave it instead of me. she asked me to send her an email of all the things I did wrong today and i was the only one she asked.... I don't know who to turn to I don't think that anyone in my school will believe me and I'm afraid to make it even worse. To be clear I have not done anything to make her doubt my abilities....i answer the small amount of questions that she asks me correctly and have not made any mistakes in skills or safety. I want to add at this point that I don't easily go down the whole gender bias road but I can't find any other exclamation. I can probably get thru this rotation but i am starting worry that she is going to fail me and feel the need to record our interactions to prove what she is doing. Apart from the fact that she makes me feel like *** i am afraid of retaliation if i actually get her saying somthing on tape Help!!!

Thanks..... I didnt think it was somthing i did i guessed that it was somthing like that ...... I don't know if I should talk to her and risk pissing her off even more or keep my head down and hope that I pass.....

Hey man Tall or short it dosen't matter, you are not there to be some kind of heavy machinery and lift people..... Just last week one of the other guys that works with me on the ortho floor came in to the ER with a herniated disk.... you need to take care of yourself. Being kind is much more important than trying to prove something by hurting your self. We want to be nurses not construction workers....( that was my first career)?

So here is it the problem ..... up until now all my clinicals has gone great, instructors like me ,I learned a lot, it was fine . recently I started clinicals in Pediatrics and the instructors seems to just not like men. she won't let me or the other guy in the group answer questions and she keeps telling me to stop running my mouth when i try to present the info i have collected on my patient. I have recently realized that she won't let me go near any of the children ,always saying there's not enough time.... when I prepare an IV drug she gave it instead of me. she asked me to send her an email of all the things I did wrong today and i was the only one she asked.... I don't know who to turn to I don't think that anyone in my school will believe me and I'm afraid to make it even worse. To be clear I have not done anything to make her doubt my abilities....i answer the small amount of questions that she asks me correctly and have not made any mistakes in skills or safety. I can probably get thru this rotation but i am starting worry that she is going to fail me and feel the need to record our interactions to prove what she is doing. Apart from the fact that she makes me feel like *** i am afraid of retaliation if i go down this road (recording) Help!!!