HeyitsSarah

Good morning! I am a new grad who has been working at a LTC facility part time. I work 8 hours per week, or 1d/wk. I was told when I was hired that I would be provided with adequate training, educational modules that I would be completing and plenty of time orienting. I have been working at this facility for 3+ months. Initially I was floated to other units until management decided to assign me to a typical LTC floor. I was not oriented, I was put directly on the floor with little training, and no education modules. There are 47 patients on this floor, and I am familiar and comfortable with one of the halls with 24 patients. I have been floated recently to other floors, usually as a treatment nurse, which I did not mind as I enjoy providing treatments. There are many things I could say about this certain nationwide facility, but I wont go there. The internet reviews say it all, and some days I wish I could just take all of the patients home with me instead of staying there. I will just say that it is the epitome of unsafe patient care; and nobody seems to care except those who have been working there for long periods of time. Today I was given the assignment of medicine aide for all 47 patients. I advised my supervisor that I did not feel comfortable with that assignment and was concerned about patient safety. The last time we went without a medicine aide, it took me an hour to provide medications to three patients. As a new grad with so many patients, I would not have been able to provide them their medications within a timely, appropriate manner. We have also recently incorporated a new computer system which I have had no training with and am unfamiliar with. My supervisor's response was "you need to do this now so you can eventually build up to providing the meds in a timely manner" but that's not my point of view. I wanted to build up on my load slowly, until I was confidently able to provide care for 47 patients. Am I wrong? I just feel like I was being thrown into a fire and possibly taking on something that I know I can't do safely. I refused the assignment and left for the day. I asked the supervisor to have the nurse educator/supervisor (who hired me) to contact me about the assignment refusal and asked her to call me about it and further education and training. I left the facility and called a nursing relative who advised me that they can try to turn it around and say I abandoned my patients and assignment. I was not given report, no keys, no count. I was given the role as medicine aide which I refused, immediately. I'm still concerned even after calling my state BON, who advised me that they can report me but chances are good that nothing will happen to me because I didn't accept the assignment. I'm looking for words of encouragement and any advice from fellow nurses. I still haven't received a call from the nurse educator/supervisor, and I've sent an e-mail asking her to contact me again to talk about this. It's been two and a half hours now, and nothing. Every time I call, she does not answer.