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Hi all, I'm looking for some advice and insight. I'm Almost halfway done my 3rd year of my BSN. This year I've realized I don't know if I want to be a nurse. Up until this point I was very academic and loved classes/learning and obtained a 90% average. This year we stared our first REAL clinical with assigned patients and full care (our program is pretty decelerated). Long story short, I really don't think I like health care nor the responsibility of it and find myself much too forgetful to feel confident in any type of care. I was going to push through it as I only have 1.5 years left and try focusing on community/palliative nursing, but I don't know if I can. I've become very depressed, can barely finish my readings, can't sleep before clinical days, and dread school overall (which I never have until this point). I think my motivation has just dropped as I'm not passionate about it. Or maybe I'm just depressed and its manifesting in school? Its hard to tell. I really don't know what to do, I don't want to regret abandoning my BSN. But I'm wondering if this just isn't the career for me as I am so so depressed. Any thought are appreciated. Thank you.

Hi there, I am am almost half way through my third year on my BSN program. My specific BSN program is very decelerated. It is just in the past month that I have taken on my OWN patient and have now started to take two. (Yes, I know, in third year) Either way, I HATE it. Finally having enough exposure and knowledge of the profession/what its really like, I want to quit so badly. Every time I am giving medications, charting, doing assessments, I feel sick. I'm so scared that I am missing something and I realized I never want to have the responsibility of someone's health. I can admit now that I went into it without knowing what the profession was really like and doing it mostly for job security reasons. Its taken me 2.5 years of school to realize this because 1st and 2nd year where so academic based with minimal clinical, I love class and learning, have a 90% average. I just HATE clinical and lab and truthfully am not doing very well in them. Only area I could see myself going is addictions, marginalized populations, community type nursing or related non-nursing jobs I could acquire with my degree. The thought of quitting and starting a different degree gives me such happiness and relief, but I don't want to regret abandoning my BSN. I just don't know if I can physically make it though the necessary clinicals to graduate. I would love any opinions or advice you guys have to offer. Thanks for any imput!