confusedabouteverything

Long story short, I thought I always wanted to go into the medical field. I graduated with a degree in biology in May, and started an ABSN program in September (after months of working on applications). A month before the program started I got cold feet, and questioned if I actually wanted to do this. I work as a CNA in a LTC and I absolutely hate it, and get anxiety going into work. I am still questioning school as well. I dont particularly enjoy the classes, and Im finding it hard to see myself working as a nurse, especially because it seems we are all being funneled into hospital nursing. My first clinicals have been in maternity, and I feel like I should be enjoying it, but Im not. I know there is so much more going on, but all I can see is pass meds, educate, and change dressings. My long term goals used to be to get my masters and become an NP, but I dont know if I can make it to that. My school allows us to take up to one year of personal leave from the program, and I am debating doing that after this semester. I am just nervous because I dont know what I would go into otherwise, and on some days I do enjoy the classes Im taking and the idea of nursing. My family is also telling me that if I stop school, Ill never go back. Ive been talking to my advisor, and I guess I just feel stuck. I have no idea what I want to do.