erikathered

I am currently in my OB/Peds semester of my ADN program. This is already a hard semester for everybody, but I have found that OB is particularly hard on me emotionally. I am a transgender woman (MTF) and so am practically infertile. I will most likely never carry a child, and by now the chances are low that I could even produce enough sperm to conceive a child for someone else to carry. I have known for a long time that my best option for ever being a parent was adoption, and I thought I had (mostly) accepted that. However, in the last couple of weeks in particular, I have been thinking more and more about the parts of parenthood and childbirth I'll never get to experience... Our lecture on breastfeeding today in particular really got to me. I know there's some research now on induced breastfeeding, but it seems so improbable that I would ever even get the opportunity. I know there may not be a ton of other trans nurses on here, but has anybody else felt similarly going through OB class due to other infertility issues? I feel very alone right now and I feel uncomfortable talking to any of my friends from school about this.