cberry1

I am a new graduate nurse that just started my first ever job in healthcare. When I was in nursing school no specialty or particular field jumped out at me so I decided to give Med surg a try. I've now been in my job for 3 months and it is steadily getting worse... I feel like my manager was dishonest during my interview and presented the floor and staff in a manor that is not accurate. I asked for an extension on my 6 week orientation because I did not feel ready to be on my own and was simply told "no". Each day when I ask for help everyone says they are too busy to help or answer a question, and even charge nurses tell me they do not have time to assist me. When I ask other members of the staff for help, like aids, they too tell me they are either too busy or just say no completely. Our charge nurses also just told us that we have to clock out on time and if we have to stay late to chart we no longer get paid for staying... I feel like I am on my own and constantly drowning. I have met with my manager a couple of times to try to talk about the lack of help and how unhappy I feel but he brushes me off. I stay awake all night dreading my job, even on nights I don't work the next day and cry every morning. Even when I get to work I cry. My anxiety is so severe I sometimes get physically ill. I know it sounds dramatic but I am completely miserable. I told myself to stick it out until the 6 month mark but for my own sanity I truly don't think I can. I feel hopeless because I don't know any other units to try that could let me get my feet under me. I love helping my patients but my coworkers and Med surg are beginning to make me hate nursing. Someone help!!