freedom4the

Is nursing preying on my inability to turn off my empathy gene as a kid that was used against me as childhood? Should I dissuade from Nursing possibly because of it? So, yes, I felt the need to state I'm a male when I see tons of women around me in the College I may be attending. It's a statement of fact, and I don't see much in the way of Feminists to make things equal for the man. Anyhow, the point of me making this post is mainly to highlight where my motives are. I did some of Jordan Peterson's future self-authoring program, and Philosophy is obviously something I prefer overall, but I'm scared that there wont be any stability to raise a family in terms of job prospects. I'm afraid that if I get into nursing though Ill end up dropping out because I disagree with giving patients drugs unless they really need it and would rather advise them to read and write more or some kind of more natural alternative. I'm sure your typical nurse would say that will change upon experience but my schtick is what if it doesn't? Just to be clear, when I was younger I also chose nursing as a profession (im 28 now) in School but my family got in the way and I had to leave. It's just, the people who I've come to admire most have their degrees in history of Philosophy, and I can see why they are so successful in their online careers making mostly Youtube videos and doing huge speaking engagements. These things have sort of got me interested in studying the field in it's own sense of Philosophy, because I've always been in front of my own camera and have had a relatively small to very limited, if no audience almost my whole life aside for a few videos that-- mainly because of their title, garnered a few ten thousand views or so. I have already chose Nursing as a major in School and would start my first year this year, but I'm worried I will regret it and end up dropping out somehow. I'm worried about the history of Nursing and what it means to be a Nurse in the Practical sense of the word. Wont I mostly just be dolling out medications under Doctor's and NP's orders? The place where I have an interview right now as a prospective CNA also does tuition reimbursement if I go to complete my RN or even become an NP if I need it and get approved for it (doesn't seem that complicated to get approved). I'm just scared that it wont work for me because I'm in it for possible career stability. Yeah, I'm an empathic person, and the main reason I'm worried is that nursing seems to be an extension of what my parents and siblings used against me in family in order to get me to care for them. They used to use my empathy against me to get me to care for them even if i didn't want to, and I'm worried that as a Nurse I will be preyed on in a similar fashion, which will be far less likely to happen if I choose the History of Philosophy as a profession. Curious what you strangers might think. My mom would also prefer me to be a Nurse. I know that I'm doing it for me, so it matters what I think the most, I just don't know, I think it's something I could do if i work hard towards it -- I don't think it would come easy for me because I naturally am an introverted type when it comes to being around people all the time with no actual standards of interaction (people shouting at you, yelling down at you, etc.) so It's just kind of nuanced for me. This make any sense to people?