Hey guys,
So I've only been a nurse for about 1.5 years. My goal was always to work in the ICU. Well, I finally got a job there and to be honest I am not loving it.
The work is okay, but where I work we do rotating shifts. This means six days and six night shifts a month. I am struggling IMMENSELY with this. My mental health has been plummeting, and my GI system is all out of whack. I don't have any meaningful days off anymore, as they are spent trying to switch between day and night shifts or just recovering. I barely see my boyfriend or speak to my family at this point.
I know that there will be a slight adjustment period, but I have been thinking that I can't do the rotating shifts. I spoke to my manager and there is not really another option besides going part-time or per diem. Either way, at this point I feel my priorities have shifted and I crave a work-life balance more than I do critical care.
I'm very hard on myself and have been feeling slightly like a failure; I finally got my "dream" job and I'm miserable?! I have been thinking that no job is worth my mental and physical health. I'm thinking of branching out into primary care. I figure it will help me gain experience for when I become an FNP anyways.
This is not a dig on primary care. I crave that kind of job. However, how do I stop myself from feeling like I'm "not good enough" for the hospital? I can do the work but I find myself unhappy. Has anyone else experienced this?
Thank you!